A Bowl Too Full

 I see you thinking
I see you look my way
but Love I love your love too much
to want you to throw it away
once there was a one
but he had another
I live on the rim of a bowl too full
of hope
too full of me alone.
Within your hands
my heart
yours
your eyes reveal
the face of my love
once there was a one
he was my other
I live on the rim of a life
that was split into two.

I'm a little bit in love but this time
gonna keep my heart on my mind
and I won't wait for a sign
to say it's time
'cause I'm standing on the edge
and I've got nothing to lose
don't give me anything and I'll be fine
I'll be fine
I'll be fine
I'll be fine

A twist of fate
it'll twist my arm
and I can't look away from what is
staring me staring me down
my one forever
I live on the rim of what I don't know
what I can't know.

Able

 I'm a little disabled
when hope invades the room
I'm a little disabled
at the thought of being loved by you
and I don't know how
you saw me standing in the dark
but darlin now
I want to open up my heart
'cause you think I'm able
to live a life I dreamed of long ago.

I'm a little disabled
when wishes do come true
I'm a little disabled
at the thought that I am loved by you
and I don't know how
we found each other in the dark
but darlin now
you are in my heart
'cause I think I'm able
to live a life I dreamed of long ago.

There's not much to say
that's not been said before
about a love that was life
a losing battle in war
that left me so disabled
that I can't kiss you goodnight
by your door.

About a Cake

 You gave me a crumb from your cake
that was as big as the sea
such a lovely cake
just a taste for me
then you took it to the kitchen
put it in the pantry way up high
yeah you took it to the kitchen
hid it from my sorry starving eyes.

so I stood at the foot
of a shelf to the sky
I could smell that sugar
that sugar should be mine
so I started climbing
Jack, he's never been so high
and I kept climbing
I should have known what I would find
she licked her fingers
and she looked at me
mouth full of venom
her eyes full of cream
in my hunger I had not foreseen
that when I found you
she would have picked you clean.

so I woke from my hope
with a bad belly ache
I am still so empty
so long I've had to wait
but I'll start cookin
I've got something on my shelf
and I'll keep cookin
I can cook it up myself.

All These Years

 I am a witness to your affection
when I am drawn I cut into
your hard soul
and they don't know you like I know you
they don't breathe in your same hallowed breath
they don't know you like I know you
they don't feel your pain inside my chest.

I've been blessed but I've been ill used
by a world who doesn't care
whose hope it loses
and they don't know me like you know me
they don't recall my face when we met
they don't me like you know me
they don't hold my youth inside their hands.

I've stood for you for all these years
when I could never stand beside you
beside you
and I will fall
whenever you fall
whenever you fall.

I know that this is who you are and I accept
that I am woven in a circle
in the center of your soul.

I've stood for you for all these years
when I could never stand beside you 
beside you

And every time you go I wonder
will you return or will you stay
upon a lonely field of clover
will night grow long as I still wait?

Bad One

 I'm a bad bad bad bad girl
not the good kind of bad
just a bad one
I'm every mother watching from the sidelines
while I'm playing on the opposite team
I know you know each play
even better than I
but I watch it while you let them slip away
I'm not breaking my own heart
I am tearing it apart
cause I know that all this trouble's cause of me
I'm a bad girl
hey I'm a bad girl
There's no man like my man
to love impossible things
tell me what's the time in the Holy Land
if it's wailing time in me?
seven hours seven days
what a struggle what a shame
and all because I'm no good
I'm no good at games.
I'll wait for the day
when you're running through my yard
I'll wait for the day
I'll wait for the day when you say
when you say I've been good.
I want more than I've got
I want more than everything
and I want it tied up in a pretty box
that doesn't seem like a lot to me
Today could be the day
when loving's not so hard
today could be the day
today is the day when you'll say..
I'm a bad bad bad bad girl
(but the good kind of bad
not the bad one).

Bus Driver

 I drive a bus in the city
my only passenger is pity
I can't stop although I've tried
stopping I just can't abide
for stopping grants a chance from which I hide.

If I let you on this bus of mine
it's bound to crash it's bound to slide
on a slippy mess 
of pain and fear and pride
I speed onward in disgrace
I have lost but I still race
for something that I thought I wanted won
now nothing can be done.

Show me the bravest man
as brave as only brave can be
I'll be the broken mass of blood there in the street
as I watch him walk away.

If I let you on this bus of mine
it's bound to crash it's bound to slide
on a slippy mess
of pain and fear and pride
I see love upon your face
but I can also see the trace
of the tragedy and torture up ahead.

You make me brave as brave
as I have ever dared to feel
with all your sweet and all your solidness I know I'll kill
as I open up my doors
but I won't drive alone no more.

Constance

 I've got a little light on inside of me
I've got a little joy that nobody can see
I am the color of a rose in July
I feel so full of what I know I must hide.
I found the sweetest honey in my tree
I found the song that I've been waiting
to sing
but somebody found you
before me.

I've got a little dungeon inside of me
I've got a broken heart that no one can see
I am the color of a November day
I feel so sick about the things I can't say.
my lips can't taste that honey that I see
my heart can hum the tune that's written
for me
that somebody's got you
and this someone can't see..

that I know this story
and I know how it ends
I know that it's nothing
but I sure can pretend
and I will wait wait wait
with my true lover's name
pressed upon my patient lips
and I will plan that day
when I'll steal his heart away
with my silence
and the constance of my wish.

I've got a little light on inside of me
I've got a little joy I want you to see
I am the color of the sun in the sky
I feel so free from all that I used to hide.
I know I'll find that sweetness that I seek
out there's a lovely tune I know I can sing
that someone's still got you
and this someone now sees..

that this is my story
I don't know how it ends
I don't know nothing
but you sure can depend
that I won't wait wait wait
for another single day
to slip right through my finger tips
and that today's that day
when I'm gonna make my way
with my defiance
and the constance of my wish.

Ding Dong

 I'm not scared
and I don't care
that I'm a thief and he's a coward
I couldn't wait another hour
no, darlin, no
I am not afraid.
something in his eyes
said he knew me better than I knew myself
I was his favorite color
I would become his hell
I knew what I wanted
I knew I had to tell
said save me please
I'm on my knees
I knew what I had to do
was not afraid to be a fool
the only thing that scared me
was the thought of losing you.

I let the wicked witch
of the West into my room
I let her loathe me
I let her steal my broom
then I found my cyclone
and that old house became her tomb.
those dreams, indeed are dead and gone
but now my sleeping days are done
and I can wake up crying
wake up numb
but I know I will never run
cause now nothing scares me.

I'm still alive without you
if I can survive without you
then there's nothing that I cannot do.

I'm not scared
I'm gonna stand my ground
now that I've settled
for never settling down
no darlin, no
I am not afraid
I am not afraid.

Dinner Music

 A little dinner music
while you eat your heart out
you can serve but you can't take it
when it's on your plate
it has always been my dream
to go well with a good steak
it has also been my dream
to keep you from staying awake
whatever you take me for
whatever you wish I'd be
I can never be less or more
than the song I've promised to sing.
Each word I sing was conceived
in my finest moments of despair
my self-sufficience so inspired
by your thoughtful lack of care
if I'm helping you to rest
I'm doing something good at least I guess
if only that were good enough for me
you see
whatever you take me for
whatever you wish I'd be
I can never be less or more
than the song I've promised to sing.

And you say and you say
what you really feel
I'm not like the other one
I won't rest until I'm done.

Everything

 Everything is all right with me
right now I've got everything I need
I don't have a lot
but I love what I've got
and that's the key.

The sun is as bright as can be
it washes us warm and clean
pure as the honey 
you give to me, my honeybee
I don't dare to keep you to myself
but you'll always fly home to me.

And it feels so good to look out at the world this morning
it's good to be alive
I can't tell you what it is about today but
things will be all right.

Our love is as big as the sea
it washes so sweet over me
I am not a lot
but you love me for what I am
they say a circle was drawn around us both
here in the sand.

Everything is all right with me
right now I've got everything I need
I don't have a lot
but I love what I've got
and that's the key.



Fortune (Redder Than Roses)

 I had a hatred of my wrist
wide as a Western plain
white as a whisper
on a winter's day
was my hatred.
I had a heart then
I had hope
but I didn't have a hand in my own
fortune or freedom
you can't reap what you never learn to sew
and all I wanted was someone
to make it all all right
but that someone just wasn't coming
so I suffered with all my mite.
I had a hatred of my lip
faint as a faithless face
flat as a river
on the saddest summer day
was my hatred.
I can't keep keeping
what I kept for the sake of pain
kept for the sake of sorrow
for deflection of the blame
when what is wrong is there is nothing
wrong with me tonight
except my wish for you to touch me
and the thought that you just might.
you said
look what you can carry
look what you can take
and my lips would be redder than roses
if I could believe the things you say.

Ghosts



I'm givin up this little ghost
been ridin in my chest he been
takin me for walks
but now you know I think it's best
to take a little time, my dear
to leave it all behind
I fear
that all my thoughts of you here were in vain
but every train I take
and every cake I bake
oh everywhere I turn
I just see blue.
I'm givin up this little ghost
there's not much else to say
I've waited for our time to come
I've watched those wolves at bay.
My shallow serenades of love
are truly reminiscent of
the child that you so clearly saw in me
but every song I played
and every wish I made
oh everything I've done I did for you.
There was a coin that fell
from heaven at my feet
I might have picked it up
when I was young and sweet
but I'm a big girl now
I've learned about the sky
and I don't need no one
to be my alibi.
I'm givin up these little ghosts
I set them free today but
there's nothing like a hauntless house
to scare my soul away
alone is not a proper word
for what I feel is too absurd
for anyone to properly define
but every empty chair
and every crooked stair
oh everywhere there's someone I can't face.
High on a hidden hill
I watch those bridges fall
they're goin one by one
but I'm still standing tall
I met a sparrow as
she floated down the lane
she said
those bridges fall
but they always rise again.

Green

 I want to lose myself
inside your pools of green
if you knew me love
you'd know what loving really means
but I guess I'd live without you
as bleak as that might seem
if you won't wait I won't blame
anyone but me.
I'm known for sweeping gestures
you're known for peace
each time you leave I hug you harder
but not hard enough to keep
and if I have to I'll live without you
as bleak as that might seem
if you won't wait I won't blame
anyone but me.

I will let you sleep upon my hand
until it's time for me to wake and
I will watch the colors of you tremble
but it's my hand that shakes
if having you means losing you
that's why I wait
that's why

I want to lose myself
inside your pools of green
if you knew me love
you'd know what loving really means
but I guess I could live without you
as bleak as that might seem
if you won't wait I won't blame
anyone but me.

I Am

 One day you'll be walkin
down the sunny side of a busy street
in your mind you see your wife,
the pretty girl you're going to meet
your life is going exactly
the way that you planned
and now the perfect woman says
that she will take your hand.
and now you wake one morning
in the life of some poor man
you do not recognize
you realize
it was me
it was me all along.

I sit here in the corner
I believe I've become the color of the wall
they used to see me
used to feel me
now I don't exist at all
hey, mister man here with the band
I think I thought of what I kinda gotta oughta wanna say
I know that this was my own choice
this was my very own mistake.
I am a swollen river
I am a newborn child
I am the melody that haunts you
in your darkest daydreams
you bring me gold and incense
ten thousand words of sorrow
you bring such things
that I once dreamed of
on a purple shoelace
I have shuffled through my cards
and I have seen I know
you're gonna rue the day
you're gonna rue the day
you're gonna rue the day
you watched me walk on by
'cause that's the day
I spread my wings to fly
you made your choice
you made your bed
so now I'll let you lie
those choices haunt us, honey don't they?
whether or not the time was right
I am a swollen river
I am a newborn child
I am the melody that haunts you in your darkest daydreams
you bring me gold and incense
ten thousand words of sorrow
I'll resurrect the words you told me
they'll be used against you
this is the last of me you ever will receive.

I Do

 Someday I will make you mine
someday we will be just fine
and you will love me like you've never loved before
you will love me and I'll never want for more.

I will never break your heart
we will never fall apart
and we won't have to hide the wounds beneath our coats
we won't have to 'cause there's nothing we won't know.

They won't break us down
(they won't break us down)
things will come around
(things will come around)
everything will be all right
you and I can walk the line
we can walk it home.

Maybe we could settle down
we could even move into a small small town
and we can teach our kids the good things that we know
they will care for us when we have grown too old.

And we won't bring them down
(they won't break us down)
they will come around
(things will come around)
we know they will be all right
they were born to walk the line
they can walk it home.

When I am lost in a sea of doubt
I will come back home
I will get myself out
baby, we were meant to be
and I think you should marry me
and turn this ship around
and I won't break us down
(they won't break us down)
you will come around
(things will come around)
everything will be all right
you and I can walk the line
we can walk it home.

LIKE A DEVIL

Well, I lost my love to the other side 
now it's gone and I don't have a single place to hide 
my love 
my love 
I'm not going away, baby I don't care 
this is who I am and I'm not scared 
it's slippin away but it's in my hands 
and I will hold on while I can... 

So you came out here to live a bigger life 
now you're seeing all the things you had to sacrifice 
for what? 
for what? 
I'm not going away, baby I don't care 
this is who I am and I'm not scared 
everything is so close, but I'm nowhere 
and everything is nothing in the end 
so I say... 

Let's ride like a devil and no one will ever 
know we nearly came to an end 
and no, we won't have money 
but we won't need none 
and it's not too late to start over again. 
Start again... 

It's sad that love can't win a fight 
it can't clothe a naked man or save a wicked life 
It's not enough. 
It'll waste you away and you won't even care 
that it's not patient and it's not fair 
but this is all we have, it's all we need 
it's all we're living for.. 

Let's ride like a devil and no one will ever 
know we nearly came to an end 
and no we won't have money 
but we won't need none 
and it's not too late to start over again. 

I never was the best in the West 
but I still believed. 
And if I don't have that 
what'll happen to me? 

If I ride like a devil 
no one will ever 
know we nearly came to an end. 
And no we won't have much, 
we won't need it 
we can start again. 

And this is what we have 
it's what we need 
it's what we've waited for 
and I am not afraid 
I'm not ok 
but we can get there someday if we only.. 

Ride like a devil 
and no one will ever 
know we nearly came to an end 
and no we won't have money 
but we won't need none 
and it's not too late to start over again.. 

And you and I 
we can fade into the sun 
and we won't ever 
speak of what is said and done.. 
it's done.

Little Lotus

 When you were just a boy
I waded through a careful tide
I waited with hopeless patience
I waited without pride.
Seventeen could never hurt me
seventeen a careful life and
a sound I had never heard
could never cause me
could never cause me strife.
So maybe he won't tell me that he loves me
but it's all right
he says that maybe one day
I'll be all right.

I wish for honesty
and I wish it to be pure
more than just a deep affection
more than a jealous girl
such a jealous girl
I know my time will come
I've had some times already
your sweet and subtle nature
stood by to keep me
stood to keep me steady
I'm not sure that this is nothing
but I think it is
I can't be counting stars
when I haven't cut my baby's arms off.

Now's the time for boys to be men
girls, hold on to your possessions
off with fever off with their heads
off to war before they're already dead
before this is already dead
I'm bleeding out everything I ever
tried to keep inside me
but I won't take what I cannot afford
and I wouldn't want to wonder
if there could have been more
when you were just a boy.

Lost & Found

 You do not ask me to change
but I ask for everything
I cannot comprehend the way that I won you
it was a series of ordinary 
ordinary days.

You changed my life and I did not know it
you hold my hand as I burn
I saw the sign but I could not show it
we had to wait for our turn.

I would wait for you.
I could wait for you.

Don't expect me to change
we can't expect anything
you may be the end of me but I don't care
without you I know I can't begin
without you I can't start.

I am lost for you. 
I am found with you.

So much harder 
to think your power
can hold another one's hand.
I can never let go 
of what I should know
of what I should have.

You may be the end of me but I don't care
without you I know I can't begin
and I would wait for you.
I could wait for you.

Middle Daughter

 I am the middle daughter
I would take my things and leave
I'd walk away from what I know
if you needed me.
I'd travel to a strange new place
where I cannot belong
they'd say I am not a Chosen One
but it's there that they'd be wrong.

The man I love needs nothing
which makes me need him more
If I had been allowed to give
what could I ask him for?
So I am the middle daughter
whose name I have forgot
but I can't do the following
even if I want.

They couldn't take this will from me
no they can't take him from me
I wouldn't wish him gone
for where would I be?
he's such a part of me.

I'm still the middle daughter
I have my Northern star
he still shines but he can't guide me
this time it's just too far.

They couldn't take this will from me
no they can't take this from me
I wouldn't wish it gone
for where would I be?
it's a part
it's such a part
it's just a part of..

New

 I'd like to live my little life
inside a box of safe and warm
I'd like to tell this independence
that I don't need it anymore
this is a way I've not desired to become
but it becomes me this one.

When I awake in the morning
in my cold and lonely morning cloud
the loss and love the love and loss
will seep and slither to my heart
this is a way I've not desired to become
but it became me this one.

Someone's singing my song for me
someone's waiting where I'd rather be.

The change has long been looming
a big balloon or constant cloud
I'd be a fool to think it might just float away
or that my stillness my prevent it's coming down
and this is a way I've not desired to become
but it becomes me
it becomes me this one.

Someone's singing that song for me
and there's nowhere that I'd rather be.

On Nature

 I am my very own planet
my own little version of the Earth
I can revolve and revolve and revolve and revolve
without even having to work.

I have my own ugly city
where nobody else wants to be
the streets are rotten and forgotten
and full of misery
they're nothing but another part of me.

How strange the perils that I foresee
when the whole world revolves in me
if one wasted star should dive into the sea
you know there'll be another star for me.

I have my own vast blue ocean
where water and salt won't run dry
the sun could beat down from a cloudless sky
but still I know everything will be all right.

I think of the sunlight more than I should
I want it to stay here
I want to be good
but I can only be the way that nature intends
so on nature the sun and I'll depend.

I'll keep on turning till I wonder
how it is that I go
sometimes the hardest part is that I'll never know.

I am my very own planet
my own little version of the Earth
I can revolve and revolve and revolve and revolve
without even having to work.

The Prophet

 I am the prophet
the seer of everything
I've got an evil eye and I've got a little lie I like
to train
to take
what I want from me
from me

just what do you want with me?
'cause I'd like to take this picture
and freeze it in my frame
yeah I would freeze you
and you'd stay the same
just as warm for me.

I can't hear myself
or have I become 
everyone else?

Can you tell me what I'll think
or what I'll do way in the future?
my fear is like a hangman
it chokes without a sound
and it can steal you
but you stay the same
just as warm for me.

I can't hear myself
or have I become
everbody else I'd like to
live inside a picture in my open book
live inside a story in my head
in my head

I need a cut upon my finger for my fear to fade
I need to taste my bloody heart that's in your teeth
I can't hear myself
have I become everybody else?

Try Try Try

 I try try try
yeah I try to be better
but I never ever seem to succeed
and yet you love love love
yeah you love me whatever
I endeavor to neglect to achieve.

I am afraid
I am afire
I am the green grey garden you desire
I wil not wait for one to follow
and I will take my time and I will time my take

and still I try try try 
yeah I try to be better
but I never ever seem to succeed.

I'll have my fate
I'll have my fight
I'll have whatever ever I like
I can see the city lights
and I could swim to them and save my life

and still I try try try
yeah I try to be better
but I never ever seem to succeed
and yet you love love love
yeah you love me whatever
I endeavor to neglect to achieve.

I will make my garden grow
since I can't stay the same
I will wait for what I know
though I know
I know nothing.

Vampire Song

 You tell me
you've got a girl, but I don't care.
You tell me
you wanna leave this world and it's not fair.

'cause I wanna
suck your blood
I wanna suck your blood
I wanna drink you in until I'm finished
till I'm full of all your secrets
till I'm full of you.

I'll take you
to a place that's not so cruel.
I'll take you
anyway so love be true.

'cause I wanna
suck your blood
I wanna suck your blood
I wanna drink you in until I'm finished
till I'm full of all your secrets
till I'm in too deep to see me
till I drown what's left within me
till I drown in you..

There's nothing
that can keep me from your side
I know you
and I know where you will hide.

Wish You Well

 I bet I'm better off now
than I've ever been before
I lost but I found more
beyond the padded prison door
you know I'm now the bad one
I've spoiled all the fun
I shed my cloak of weakness
when I finally turned the gun
when I finally turned the gun.

There's things I'd like to say
so I'll say them to everyone
the shadow of your judgement
is taller than you are or ever were
as stubborn as I know I am
oh you're so much worse
I'd like to tell you what was wasted
when you chose just who should hurt
when you chose just who to hurt.

You cannot desecrate me
as full of blame as you may be
my colors run but you can't make me bleed
you can't make me bleed.

You know I wish you well
I wish I'd spared a little less
I'm old enough to take it
I'm too old to hold a grudge long in my fist
and if I have to be the bad one
and spoil all the fun
I'll show my naked strength
when I finally rest the gun
when I finally rest the gun
I'll rest the gun.

Your Hymn

 How transparent is my face
when I'm exposed to all your grace
and the everlasting wonder of your charms?
and does it give you grief
do you know of what I seek
or do you think that my love does more good than harm?
well there's no need to worry
but Darling you might hurry..
rocking chair
keeps singing but
I don't care
I'm thinking of
the sweetest song I ever heard
your voice my symphony
your hymn to me
no goodbye
nor weary sigh
could ever dare replace
this song of mine.

for you I'd live a thousand lonely lifetimes
for you I'd cross a hundred raging seas
though I may never rest my head
til all the world is dead
I would sell my sorry soul my love for you
I brave
the winter wind I
know I'm saved
I know it when
I see the sun
I see the sky
your face my peaceful sea
you're home to me
no sad eye nor wicked smile
could ever dare replace
this peace of mine
for you I'd never see another sunrise
for you I'd block the autumn from my gaze
if you're the only thing I see for all eternity
how I'd sell my sorry soul my love for you.
For you I've lived a thousand lonely lifetimes
for you I've crossed a hundred raging seas
for all these troubles I've been through
all along I knew
and now my Love
my soul belongs to you.